I thought when I first decided to clean up my life and try something different that it would be boring but I just knew I couldn’t go on the same self destruction path anymore.
I thought how am I going to get through a day without a mask? How do I just be in the raw? The first time I had feelings I wanted to get the mask but I instead took it in and breathed that moment and felt every bit of pain and God took me through it. The first time I felt joy without my mask God helped me through it.
When you live your whole life covering feelings you don’t know how to experience life in the moment its like being a baby and needing a pacifier.
Today I experience life with God in the raw. He says look at the sunrise I made you this morning. Feel the wind through your body. I want You to feel Me live in you. Open my Word up I wrote for you get to know Me.
One day at a time. One moment at a time. I became one with God. He lives in me. He cleaned me up and made me new. Its not boring. Its marvelous, freeing. He makes me brave and want to try new things. He pulled me out of the mud and brushed me off. Then He washed me off.
He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.
You can start right now. Just right now. You don’t have to clean up. God says let me do that for you. Let go and let God do that for you.
Reach for Him and say Jesus I’m tired of doing this thing called life on my own. Come and stay in my heart and brush the dirt off me and wash me. I can’t clean myself up by myself but Im going to trust the process.
Today I will live just in today but now with you I walk. I can’t lay the mask down I use to hide behind. Today will you show me how.Now be aware of the moment your in and watch what He shows you.
Remember It is God who formed you and created you in your mothers womb. Allow Him to do it again. Just trust the Process. What the world tore apart. He will form and knit you together again.
And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.